As I sit here and right this, words cannot express how I feel. I lost a friend September 11, 2009. The pain that I feel is deep, and I keep questioning what happen, and why. Kaneesha Mallard was a beautiful girl. She was full of life, and love to laugh. She was a great friend, and an amazing confidant we had fun together. There was never a dull moment when she was around. I remember when I first met Kaneesha I remember thinking I like this girl, she’s very real. This morning I got a phone call that broke my sprits, and turned my life completely around.
I feel bad, why is it another mother must bury her child? This is not a natural way of life. In life when all is going wrong we think “what else can go wrong,” things are supposed to go from bad to good, but this is something different, someone took her life way to early, and don’t realize the pain that they inflicted on her friends, and family. I never thought that I will feel the burden of a friends death, but thinking did not help. The pain will stay with me for the rest of my life, but I will remember to smile every time I think about her, every time I hear her name. I am tired of the violence it is time for a change, I must be that change, if I don’t want to lose anymore friends to early, and mourn another death. I feel sick to my stomach right now, and the feeling will not get any better, it will just get worse as things unfold.
Her life was so precious, why couldn’t they see that? Why couldn’t they see who she was? Why did they not care? Who could do such a thing, take a sister, a daughter, a friend? Sometimes we don’t realize how important the little moments or, we have to learn to cherish the seconds, minutes, hours, and days that we share with our love ones. Time well spent with people we love, that is what make our lives rich, not how much money we have, our the material things we pose, but the love we share for each other I will never recover from this, I just learnt, that time is not promise. We have to express our love for the ones that are here, and remember the ones we lost. There will always be a void in our group of friends, because we lost someone very dear to us. Love you Girl.
I feel bad, why is it another mother must bury her child? This is not a natural way of life. In life when all is going wrong we think “what else can go wrong,” things are supposed to go from bad to good, but this is something different, someone took her life way to early, and don’t realize the pain that they inflicted on her friends, and family. I never thought that I will feel the burden of a friends death, but thinking did not help. The pain will stay with me for the rest of my life, but I will remember to smile every time I think about her, every time I hear her name. I am tired of the violence it is time for a change, I must be that change, if I don’t want to lose anymore friends to early, and mourn another death. I feel sick to my stomach right now, and the feeling will not get any better, it will just get worse as things unfold.
Her life was so precious, why couldn’t they see that? Why couldn’t they see who she was? Why did they not care? Who could do such a thing, take a sister, a daughter, a friend? Sometimes we don’t realize how important the little moments or, we have to learn to cherish the seconds, minutes, hours, and days that we share with our love ones. Time well spent with people we love, that is what make our lives rich, not how much money we have, our the material things we pose, but the love we share for each other I will never recover from this, I just learnt, that time is not promise. We have to express our love for the ones that are here, and remember the ones we lost. There will always be a void in our group of friends, because we lost someone very dear to us. Love you Girl.
